Monday, August 16, 2010

I took a vacation...from my problems

It has been a while since I wrote here! I've not been lazy, just preoccupied. The first thing that happened was the screen on our computer started to break. It actually started to many months ago. We finally had to take it into the shop. I was nervous because we have a Mac, and I could only imagine what a repair was going to cost. Guess how much it ended up being? $0.00. Yep, Apple took care of everything! Yay. :)

So we were without a computer for five days. Unlike what you may think, I did not freak out. lol. I told myself I wasn't going to be pathetic and mourn the absence of my computer. True, I missed having the internet, e-mail, youtube, facebook, itunes, bejeweled, etc. But I filled every moment with my baby, husband, AND I read a whole book ( a big book ) in two days! Go me.

The day we got our computer back, I started feeling so sick. It started as an achey flu, turned into a crazy cold, I sort of lost my voice, sounded like a caveman, couldn't taste anything, just wanted to be alone...yes, miserable. This lasted for another five days.

Now that I'm feeling great, and the busy weekend is over, my baby is cutting her first tooth, is fussy, too hot, and purposely (yes, purposely, she's very advanced) keeping me away from anything computer related. But it's okay. She comes first, and I'm able to steal a few minutes as she nurses herself to sleep in my arms. Hope everyone's having a great Monday. :)

Monday, August 02, 2010

Breastfeeding in Public - revisited

Inspiration (or shall I say, a kick in the booty) for today's post comes from an amazing article (click here) I read from Mothering. I strongly encourage everyone to take a few moments and read it.

A couple weeks ago, I wrote a post about my thoughts of breastfeeding in public. In it I stressed both the importance of putting your child first and not being afraid of feeding her/him in a public place, and also the importance of keeping the act of breastfeeding beautiful by not flashing people in an obnoxious way.

I stand corrected. Upon much reflection and soul-searching, I want to focus on the latter and clear things up. Actually, clarity isn't the issue here. Changing my own point of view, however, is.

You see...I think while trying to emphasize the necessity of maintaining respect for our bodies, I might have come across as saying we need to hide. I don't think this was accidental or me not being clear. But rather, I think this came from a subconscious feeling of me still not being 100% comfortable to breastfeed my own child in front of everyone.

Yes, unfortunately, I think that's it. I'm frustrated about how I feel. I promote breastfeeding and encourage others to do the same. But a part of me still feels inhibited while doing it out of my own home. Is it because I'm afraid someone will approach and embarrass me? (Even with the law and stubbornness on my side, I still freeze during confrontations.) Is it because I was raised to always be very modest and cover myself?

Don't get me wrong. I don't cover up all the time when nursing. Actually, I hardly do...only at the pool or a wedding where nursing would have meant exposing my entire upper body - and I'm sorry but I don't feel comfortable with that (maybe some people do. More power to them :P).

I guess, in closing, I just want to apologize if I came across as one of those people who thinks breastfeeding needs to be hidden. I don't at all! Maybe I need to overcome my fear of offending people or being approached. Maybe? I think yes!